Lately I’ve come to realize why I’ve been so passive with my life, it turn out to be my stoic upbringing. I was always taught to not have desire for things and learn to appreciate what’s given to me. I took the idea to the extreme and stumbled through my teen and early twenty years not having a clue what I want to do. It seem that what my parents meant was for me to live the best life I could and not have any regrets. Its kinda hard to regret anything when you’ve done nothing worthwhile. I was reminded of a saying one of my teachers use to mention regarding any endeavors, he tried to drill into our heads that there are no shortcuts to anywhere worth going. Just wanting something isn’t enough, you have to put in the effort to get it. Only in my late 20s that I realize the truth of this simple principle. As such I’ve come to embrace this new revelation in full force, I am doing the things I want to do with more intensity and dedication to see it through. The old way of doing things wasn’t working out so well for me, I was developing and inferiority complex and there was no way out. A series of events happened that got me to snapped out of it and recovered my pride. Pride, when used correctly can be a powerful motivator, and as Eleanor Roosevelt so eloquently put it, noone can make you feel inferior without your consent. I’ve yet to accomplished anything meaningful but I will always stay wanting and never settle.
Filed under: Stream of Consciousness , pride, want
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