I know why he failed

His training methods were wrong
He neither studied or put forth any effort
He didn’t scrutinize the details
His approach was wrong
He was too eager
His pace was too fast
He burned out way before the finish line
He wasn’t ready for it
He need to adjust
He need to get his mind right
He need to train with a purpose
He will come back, and conquer the next race

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Goodbye heartache

I never really wanted our friendship to fall apart
But its time for us to say goodbye
I can’t deny how much I’ll miss you and how much you mean to me
I will say otherwise, but you know better

I once asked what I meant to you
Secretly hoping that you’ve come to see me in a different light
But you’ve confirmed what I’ve feared all along
I am just another friend along the way

So for my own selfish reasons
I must learn to say goodbye
You will never know, how much you mean to me
How much it hurt to say goodbye

I realize you didn’t intentionally lead me on
But due to the nature of my sentimental heart
I  can no longer repress my misguided affections
To save myself from further heartache, I must learn to say goodbye

I’ll never know if I ever meant half as much as you are to me
It was foolish to open my heart to you
I can’t help but feel that way, so its time to say goodbye
Your heart can’t be sway, at least not by this foolish guy

The next time we meet, a simple acknowledging glance will suffice
No need for any superficial exchange of words
I already know what you have to say
And you, you will never change

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A chance for love

I thought long and hard and what little I am able to convey in words below were my intentions from the very beginning. No one is at fault. It was just a case of misplaced affection. I hope that in time I can learn to forget and move on.

A chance for Love

My intentions were simple
I wanted a chance to held your hands
To make you laugh when you’re feeling down
To dry your tears when you cry
To pull you up when the world got you down
To sway your heart to look my way

I wanted a chance
To say “xin lỗi” when I am in the wrong
To say “hey” when you’re feeling lonely
To say “I care” when you feel neglected
To say “I’ll listen” when you need to vent
To say “its ok” when you need to be comforted

I wanted a chance
to have what so many are looking for
and which so few people actually found
I wanted a chance to experience true love
But it can’t be force, if its not there
Goodbye heartbreak, you’re no friend of mine.

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Froward Fool

What do I know
A simple deluded fool
You’ve been through so much
Heart ripped and torn

You once felt so truly in love
There was someone else you trusted
How did that turn out ?
You were all alone

Bitter and lonely
Who do you think was there for you ?
He who you trusted or this deluded fool ?
Although tossed to the side I was always there

I pulled you through it all
I gave you paddings for your hurts
Yet you were too stubborn to see
Tossed me aside still

You froward fool
When will you realize
You’ll just repeat the same mistakes again
Everything is deja vu

But this time I won’t be there
To be your deluded fool
Tossed out way too far
I can’t find my way back to you

Filed under: Poetry

The World I Know

Gazing through a tiny crack
Within the safe confines of my mind
I dared to look out for something more
Abashed by the apparent vastness

I never imagine there could be more to see
Yesterday’s problems seems so trivial
The world I knew, slowly crumbled
Within the confines of my mind

Beyond my narrow views
The world I know no longer exists
Pummeled by the drastic changes
I thought to myself, “So world this is you”

Lost and confused, I ponder my next move
Do I content in thinking myself learned and founded
Do I slip back into the confines of my mind
The pleasing thoughts and memories of a known world are still there

Should I admit to petty narrow mindedness
And embrace the world beyond my eyes
Knowing what the world is like now
How can I still gaze through the same tiny crack

Filed under: Poetry , changes, narrow minded

Same Old Story

Another year gone by
Another candle burned away
My eyes are restless
So many dreams slipped by unfulfilled

When I look at myself
I don’t see the man I want to be
Blurred by reflections of past failures
I am lost in my own puddle of self doubts

Same old story, same old acts
I’ve been here so many times
I don’t want another line on the wall
This time I have to change

To be that man I see inside
To dare to dream again
I never said goodbye to my pride forever
I will try try and try again

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Hindsight

In hindsight
That was really stupid
It was doomed from the start
I should’ve seen through it
Cupid had me blindfolded

In hindsight
I realize everything
Was not how it should have been
It was pointless
For me to gave a damn

In hindsight
I probably shouldn’t have done it
I probably should known myself better
I should have realized this sooner
You never really gave a damn

In hindsight
I regret everything
I was too blind
Never saw it coming
I played the part of a fool

In hindsight
I remember everything
Each and every words
Mocking my bared soul
Lesson learned… I shouldn’t have gave a damn

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mend a broken heart

I am but a side note in your life
Shattered hearts are bitter
How can I mend a broken heart ?
When the pieces I have are tainted by someone else’s ghost

The time we shared were brief
I wanted to be the one to put you back
How can I mend a broken heart ?
When your tears are wasted on regrets

Regrets for things that could’ve and would’ve been
You said no more heartaches and wished to be happy
How can I mend a broken heart ?
When your happiness are of past memories

I never wanted you to be sad
So I was always your clown
Hoping that maybe one day you can feel for me
The way you do with him

I finally told you how I feel
Thinking that its for the best
Somewhere deep inside of me
Thought maybe you would give me a chance

Chances are… its just not there
I don’t know what kind of person
you need for me to be
But I can only be who I am

I don’t know if what’s on the outside
is all of me that you see
All I know is that you will never feel for me
Love fades; and so too will you fade from my memories.

~ hai 10/2007

Filed under: Poetry